Please forgive me if you’ve heard this one before. The title of this post is a line from Cat Power’s song “Colors and The Kids”, from her Moon Pix CD. It’s one of my favourite songs by one of my favourite artists, and its wistful tone is perfect to my ears.
It’s a recurring theme, and if my internal editor wasn’t on leave, well, this piece wouldn’t find its way into this blog, with its primary focus being a visual record of Melbourne’s urban decay. But here it is anyway…
I have long imagined my life story – or the semi-autiobiographical story I intend one day writing (both are interchangeable for the point of this piece) – finding some closure with the protagonist’s retreat from the City (and its urban decay), and return to the beach (nature).
Sunday night, Rosebud
After just two nights away, staying an hour and a half out of town, I feel recharged. I found calm, a natural peace of mind I can’t easily attain living in the City. I suppose I could find a version of it via meditation or yoga. But what I love about stepping onto the beach, sinking my feet into the sand, seeing the water meet the sky on the horizon, and hearing the surf, is the unconscious and immediate way it happens.
Day one, at Rosebud beach, was fun. The beach is ideal for young families, because it is so shallow for such a long distance out. And being on the bay side of the peninsula, there is barely a ripple to break the surface.
Seeing the girls so happy, so carefree was good. Barefoot shopping at the Rosebud Plaza was a relaxed change for me.
Today we drove to the ocean side of the peninsula, to Gunnamutta Ocean Beach. The scenery outside Rosebud, the lush seaside greenery and rolling hills are beautiful. The beach itself, in all its elemental rawness, impressed the girls as much as it did me. Rosebud is one thing, but this was a whole level above.

I know any real estate down here is expensive, I’m not that foolish. But the dream is not about a main street ocean view, or sumptuous mansion, complete with telescope and floor to ceiling tinted windows. My vision is escaping into the elements: a timber cabin or shack, buried in the hillside somewhere on the ocean side of the peninsula. And in this environment, I honestly believe I could create my life’s work. Not that I intend setting writing aside until then – this piece is pecked out on the iPhone’s Notes app, in our cabin. (I’ll step outside when I’m ready to publish, so I can pick up some 3G coverage).
My two girls, not just ocean kids, and maybe one day surfers too. But Star Wars fans too – both of them. This is enough to make me smile.
After we ate, they asked to make another visit to our beach (Rosebud) to see the “islands” left by the receding tide… where we discovered two kids, a brother and sister, digging for crabs. They had a collection in a can, and when I asked what they would do with them, the sister told us she knew how to take care of them, she knew what they ate (the inside of clams).
Maybe now, working for the bank, I have the means, the key. Maybe if I play my cards right, maybe in ten years time I can make it real. And it’s a dream Mrs H and I share.
Having the dream, the goal together is the first step, isn’t it? I hope you have the courage to believe in your dreams, and may they come true for you too.